It seems I only post to this thing anymore when something is bothering me.
.... go figure.
So here'goes. I think the number of people I know that are genuinely honest, and actual friends of mine are dwindling. Everybody in Alaska except for a few of my cousins have turned into complete douches. All of them are liars, and half are druggies. And even the people I thought I knew out of state, and online have been providing me with more and more reasons not to trust them. And less reason for me to believe I know them at all.
Now don't take this personally. There are a hand-full of online friends (and I'm sure you know who you are) That have always been awesome to me. And I'm glad to have each and every one of you.
However, there are also those that I believe hide behind the computer screen. The ones that throw up false feelings and even false lives. It's sad, actually. When you try to put your full trust in somebody, knowing that they are your friend. Then finding out little by little that most, if not all of what they tell you is bullshit. Prolly my fault in the first place for wanting to believe that everyone would be so straight forward.
I personally try to make a point of being completely, and even brutally honest with people. Sure I piss a lot of people off, and make less friends because of it. But those that do become friends, I assume is because they are similar... or for some crazy reason enjoy me for who I am. If I don't tell somebody outright what I am thinking or believe, it's usually in an attempt to spare them from my psychosis. But if asked... about anything. I don't hesitate to answer with the truth.
I dunno. Sometimes I wish I could just believe the lie... or make it reality. Sometimes it's a bummer not knowing who your friends are. Hmph.
[Aside from that mess. News and whatnot.]
My possible future job with the Operators union is looking good. I am almost positive that they are going to accept me now. I went in for my interview finally and it went swimmingly. The head honcho's of the Union seemed to take my honesty in a good way. Only, the school won't be starting until March of 2010. *Sigh*
Luckily, This won't be too much of a problem. I have been talking to a guy that works on the north slope... and I will be going up to run a Cat-Train with him in late Dec/early Jan. Hopefully sooner rather than later. For this job, the shifts are usually in 6 week increments. I would like to get two hitches in before the Apprenticeship begins. mainly because the first period of schooling is unpaid. The only bummer of this whole mess is that the cat-train job will be in such a remote location, that I won't even be able to use a Cell phone. Completely out of touch for the 6 weeks I'm working. the good news is, even if I only work for 6 weeks I should make between $10-12K. It'll be nice making real money again.
Later, y'all. X3